Hailey Update

Hey all.
Hailey has new tumors. There is at least one big one on the muscle tissue surrounding her bladder. She will have surgery sometime this week we guess. Her oncologist wanted to wait to send her to TX for scans AND surgery, but the consensus now is that she need surgery ASAP.
How long can she keep doing this? She will be on chemo for the rest of her life - she may get lucky and have a few months off here and there - but basically she will be sick from chemo and cancer forever. What would you do if you were faced with that?
Hailey's attitude is that she will do whatever she has to in order to fight. That is good. I love that. I may have already ditched the whole chemo thing, eating raw kale and carrots and traveling in an RV for a while.

For those who don't know, my mom also has cancer. She had a localized tumor taken out of her breast last week. Mom is doing OK, she is more worried about Hailey than anything. Shocker. She has an appt with the doctor on Tuesday to get her plan together. I am guessing that she will get radiation, I can NOT see Sheila going through chemo.

Just a quickie...

To explain my FB status, I am just really irritated today. I truly do not fake my happiness and joyful spirit - but today I am mad.
Hailey is in the hospital again because of her blood count. I just saw her yesterday! She was fine...she had color, we were joking around, she got up and sat on the porch with me - then BAM! Back in the pokey. That is one of the MANY crappy things about cancer, it can catch you off guard. One minute everything seems OK, then back to the hospital.
Whatever, I know she is in good hands and she is still here. So praise God for that. God's got it. I know he does, whatever the outcome (wether I like it or not) is not in my control.
So, I will just try and let it go and enjoy Lost tonight.

Namaste,

H

Update on Hailey

Hello!
I have not been keeping you updated on Hailey! Bad Heather!

My sweet sis has had one full round of chemo, it kicked her butt. She was in the hospital 3 days following the chemo treatment for 6 days. She got 2 blood transfusions, including platelets. She has ONE more round of this kind of chemo (we think) and then its on to out patient chemo. This will be good for her because the chemo will not be nearly as hard on her as the type she is currently taking. The question is, will it keep killing the tumors? We don't know yet. Just pray that the doctors know what they are doing and that Hailey will keep her Spirits up in order to fight. The great thing is that her quality of life will improve dramatically with out patient chemo. She will be able to be at home more often, spend more quality time with Colleen and James. She misses being at home with her stuff, TV, dogs and family. Sometimes it just rips my heart out. Sometimes it rips her heart out. Sometimes it rips James' heart out. We are all doing the best we can, but watching someone's life be taken over by cancer is (in Hailey's words) No Bueno!

We are all learing lessons, getting closer to God and to each other. I know that God is working toward the Good for all who love him. Its amazing, we still love Him, and love Him even more through this. Sometimes we just need to stop trying to make sense out of it all and just trust Him. That is SO hard sometimes! I know that we are only here for a blink of an eye compared to the eternal heaven that awaits us - but why does it have to be so hard? A dear friend of mine thinks maybe its to cleanse us for our jobs in heaven. I don't know, but that sounded pretty good to me. Or, just stop trying to make sense of it in our computerized brains and just trust in our hearts that its all working for the good for those that love Him.