You are looking for a way to calm your mind. You have admitted and realized that your mind is like a spinning top and it only stops when it hits a wall. Congratulations - you have made the preverbal first step - admitting you have a problem. So, what do you do? How do you meditate? You have heard the word but what do you actually do? Sit down and clear your mind, right? Sounds easy enough...until you try it. The spinning top is more prominent than you thought and you give up. That sucked. Game over. Lets get back to doing the dishes, or was it the laundry....mmmmm peanut butter. Oh, crap, we were talking about meditation...
Well, I have some words of hope and wisdom for you. You need tools.
First, you need to realize that if you know how to worry, you know how to meditate, or at least focus. You are just focusing on bad things. The past, future and the past again - then the future... worrying about things that don't matter and will probably never happen.
Second, you need a place. Find a quiet spot in your home (this can be the bathroom with the door locked and the fan on - I promise nobody will bother you). Sit, relax, be comfortable and take a short 10 minute break.
Third, you need to breathe. Deep, long inhales (let your belly go!) and longer exhales are key to quieting the mind.
Next (tired of counting now!) you need to focus on something. One single thing. What is this object of attention? It is not your to do list honey, you can count on that. The object is up to you. What is the basis of choosing the object? Choose an object with an appreciation of your potential at the present moment. Begin with a less complicated object - then as time goes on you can focus on something more complicated.
Are you able to contemplate an ocean wave? A tree? A candle flame? A simple mantra such as peace?
At the heart of it all this is what we are seeking - peace. So focus on what brings you peace.
There is much more to this subject, so dear friend, I will continue this letter to you later.
I am off to my quiet place for about 20 minutes.